R E C I P R O C I T Y.

Its not just a "big word,"
It should actually mean something...to u, to me to everybody. It means so much more relationship wise when u don't have to use ur esp to decide if ur efforts are in vain. If ur doing too much, if u should just walk away. If he/she's just not that into u.

Speaking from my own experience...I never can gage...well anything. I just give up. Ill write u off in a second. I mean honestly, how am I suppose to know u like when I call in the mornings if u don't say anything? Im just sayin.

Granted...I know ppl are busy, but can I get a text back? A voicemail? A fuckin email perhaps? If u have time to eat...u have time to reply.


That's just how I feel.


I've stepped off the rollercoaster.

The Declaration.

I Tight Like Spandex, am in need of some changes. Like NOW. So I make the following declarations and changes to my life.

1. I promise that I will no longer put anyone before my obligation to better myself. Because I not only benefit as a woman, but also as a contributing member of society.
2. I promise to focus only on the things I can control and change because my time is precious.
3. I declare to always have an open heart and give everybody an equal opportunity.
4. I promise to be honest about how I am feeling no matter what.
5. I will be honest with myself.
6. I will not allow my world to be ruled by negativity no matter how big or how small.
7. I will set and achieve all my goals.
8. I will not let my progress go stagnant.
9. I promise to continually work on me and healthy relationships around me.
10. I promise to always love me first.
11. I promise to ALWAYS keep my promises.

Thats it, there is no more. I vow these words forever more!

blah.

Being sick blows.
Especially when ur head is about to explode.
I feel like dying.
Blaaaaah!

That is all.

That Feeling.

U know that feeling u get when ur on a rollercoaster and ur almost at the top and then suddenly u fall 100s of feet downward and just when ur sure ur going to throw up there's a sudden turn and ur up 100s of feet again and this process continues until well until the ride is over. That's how Im feeling...and even more frightening than dropping 100s of feet downward...I can't remember the last time I felt like this. [Im SO in liking.] Its amazing what God will give u just when u have most certainly decided u were done with whatever. In my case I had most certainly given up on relationships. Seemed pointless to even try all anybody ever wants is pussy money and weed lol j/k, but seriously they don't want what u have on inside because they're blinded by what's outside and inside ur pockets.

With that said...there is this person who without even trying made me feel the rollercoaster ride. Im riding and don't even know what to do with myself. Should I call should I not call?? Do u want to see me cuz I wanna see u...kinda stuff. Smh I actually care if Im doin too much, Im conscious of what I am doing, saying...feeling. But the funny part is...I like it. I like it almost as much as I like u.

The only thing is when ur ridng with caution to the wind...sometimes u get smacked in the face.

Nevertheless, Im loving being this high. :-)

untitled.

Progress is ur way of showing God He didn't waste His time when he made u.

And letting Obama know he wasn't just speaking about himself.

L O V E

L O V E

Has brought me to my

K N E E S

Im starting to believe Im not

W O R T H Y

Cuz all it ever does is hurt

M E

But all these thoughts keep

S W A R M I N G

Bout how I can give us another chance

Because even tho I can't stand u...

its a never ending romance.

Love builds us up to break us down

Love is the sweetest sound

She said it could be a battleground

So i think Im ready for one last round.


Writers note: this poem has NOTHING to do with Valentines day. Thank u!

Subject to Change?

Women setting themselves up for disappointment??? NO...couldn't be!

Its true though...we all have been guilty of it at least once...mistaking our "daydreams" for reality. Living in what I have come to call it...'La La Land.' Trying to change a situation and/or person into what we desire.

Plain signs lay in front of us and yet we continue to try detours to the same street we were blocked off from. Its disturbing how much pain we will endure just to say in the end you have a broken heart. From whatever the circumstance may be...

Its not ever worth it...and I know Im preaching to the choir.

Subjection to Heartbreak. Its a terible kind of death.

So next time you wanna try that new drug...read the pre-cautionary note, before you overdose...on the high.